Today, on the train, some random guy punched me in the face, and my first thought afterwards was "I should blog this shit."

Man, I don't know.

Dr. Social

So, Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon.I've been playing it for the past few days, and it is a Fire Emblem game. It's a remake in the most regressive possible sense: imagine the plot and gameplay of an NES game, now on your DS! The graphics are ugly, and the game has large holes where modern innovations have been excised for nostalgia's sake.

Worst part is, I see myself beating FE:SD in advance of better, more deserving games. Fire Emblem is such a lazy game. It's in perfect rhythm to play while watching TV or riding the train. Each turn takes a couple minutes, and any sense of urgency dies when I inevitably need to repeat a level.

Fuck. I feel really bad about playing this game now that I've put all of this effort into trashing it. I did the same thing with Fallout 3, playing it for ten more hours after I realized I hated it. Bad Game Stockholm Syndrome?

I really want to write a story, like, actual fiction. Gotta get to it, figure out where to start, maybe hide my DS from myself.

Create

This night finds me agitating in my computer chair, still fuming about my lack of motion or direction. I've decided to do one of those things, the daily affirmation deal. You repeat your goal over and over until it becomes a mantra, and then until it becomes a reality. Scott Adams wrote about the power of affirmations in one of his books, and I've always been intrigued by how they represent a midpoint between the power of suggestion and the mystical spell.

A few years ago, my highest ambition in life was to own a 1988-91 Honda Prelude, just like my idol, Max the Car Thief. I employed a simple affirmation, many times a day: "I will get a 3rd-gen Prelude." So here, I'm going to do the same thing, partially for the gains outlined above, and partly as a mission statement. There's really no one I'll bore with this shit, since I'm pretty sure no one reads this anyway.


I am going enroll in a 4-year college, and graduate.
I'm going to get a decent job that pays well.
And I'm going to own a 3rd-gen Prelude 2.0Si, with 4-wheel steering, that's in Good condition.